Me and my partner finally had our nuptial bliss 3 months ago and of course it was wonderful and still is.
Since then, I am emotionally affected each time I see babies. (I guess it is time to have my own!)
The emotions are rather overwhelming and I will find myself tearing each time. 1 month after the wedding, I thought I conceived and I went to the pharmacy and bought a couple home pregnancy test kits. I had the craziest symptoms of a pregnant woman - I felt my hormones going cray-cray, my breasts got swollen, I had bad cramps on the left side of my lower abdomen, my nipples were itchy, I find it hard to breathe and had trouble sleeping at night despite getting tired easily during the day. I even had baby dreams!
My heart beats so fast as I waited for the test results after peeing on the stick.
NEGATIVE-
My hopes and dreams just went down the bathroom drain. I felt devastated and of course I cried. I did not know how I got all the symptoms but still achieved a negative result.
After telling my husband, he pleasantly told me I need to be very patient and it will come without knowing but I was not satisfied and that I am going to use another test kit 2 days later, which I eventually did.
NEGATIVE AGAIN.
I was devastated again and I stayed in the bathroom for a little longer squatting down crying just to release all the pressure I had in me wondering how much can I trust myself believing I am pregnant or the test kit showing negative.
The symptoms went away like magic! No more breathless and sleepless nights, no more cramps etc.
2 months past by since and I sort of gave up testing soon after my period came after that. I was 5 days late on my last period but it finally came. I actually downloaded a period application in my iPhone app store to track my when will my menses come and my most fertile days etc. Can this app be trusted?
Now I do hope and pray to get pregnant so bad. So so bad. :(
